Lost in the library

While i was reading my assigned book, i studied the library that i was currently working in. I am a regular voulnteer at the local library. As i stared at the library, i analyzed the place and the people in it. Little kids were trying to stay quiet, but still talked loudly to their parents asking them questions. Silly questions to me, yet honest questions to their adolesent minds. "What did Jesus go?" And... "There is a movie called Thank You for Smoking?" I began to think about what kind of questions i might have asked when i was that age. Then again i still ask those questions. I smirked off the thoughts and began to analyze others in the building. I watched as the security guard began to fall asleep. I started to think, if i put a sign on top of her sign that says "security guard," that says sleeping, to say "security guard sleeping" how long before she would notice. But by then i'd have finished my shift. I considered the sign, then just at that moment a mother and daughter walked into the library. It caught my eye how they both had matching tye-dye shirts. They were like hippies. One of the very rare mother daughter species. You may see the "daughter" hippie or the "mother" hippie, but never both at the same time. I know it was random, but i noticed that i needed to pee. I mean i knew i had to go before i entered the library, but i didn't have enough time to go before my shift. Maybe i thought if i kept thinkiing about something else i could get my mind off of waterfalls and lakes. When just at that moment, this girl ran past the door on her cell phone. I knew her, from last summer. She had short hair and wore rediculous black P.E. shorts and that hidious gray shirt that she wore every day. Now she had longer hair, and a new shirt. She still wore those shorts though. Any how, i had only remembered her name this morning. Her face was covered with this boy that was also in my summer class. No offense to her, but how could she get kissed before me. I mean i know the only reason why i haven't, or at least the reason i convince my self is the real reason, is because i haven't found anyone "perfect" enough. But.... still. It was the fact of the matter. Here i am drooling over a guy out of my league, while she is making out with her boyfrined. Or so i hope is her boyfrined. I have realized many many times before that i could settle for less than perfect, to be my first kiss. But you only get one first kiss and i want it to be with the perfect person. Is that too much to ask? With all this thinking its led me back to what i was trying to forget. MY NEED TO PEE. My bladder was going to explode. I know i should have just excused myself and let the other girl at the booth manage the booth for less than one minute, but i couldnt do that. She had jsut pulled a double shift, and i didn't want to look like a slacker. I guess it was my darn pride. So i tried to think of somehing else. Which led me back to Ellen, the girl from last summer. I tried to think that i wasn't compltely incapable of getting a boyfrined. I mean just this summer i got asked to a date, and some dude learned a song on the guitar for me. Oh no my worst fear. I was trying to make my life seem less pathetic then it already is, and by doing this its only making it more pathetic. I felt like Ross on that one episode of FRIENDS when he was talking about interactions with the oppisite sex and making it sound like he was "hott stuff." Yikes and of course that thought led back to, ME HAVING TO PEE. Just at that moment i saw these kids outside the door running to get inside the library. I knew that meant it was almost time to close up. The parents probably told them to run otherwise they wouldn't make it. I smirked and felt some sort of relief that my shift was almost over. It turned 3:00, closing time. I camly ran into the bathroom, and well TMI. I celebrated my small victory with a smirk. TMI okay... Well my thoughts were complete, understandings still unknown. But life ahead of me. THE END.